Luna + Carina

   Welcome one and all to the Pulp Mag! I am Carina, and as co-head of the ‘Pretty Things’ section, I am looking forward to bringing you beautiful photographs, drawings, collages, and more to please your visual desires. Since this is our first post, when sitting down to write this, the idea of new beginnings and firsts came to mind. As I’m a senior in high school, this is a point of transition in my life. This is the first time I’ve had to think about living on my own, or at least without my family around. This is the first time I have to leave my friends, and this is the first time I’m not really sure what to expect. I can’t quite decide what I want to do with my life, seeing as I want to do everything, and this is the first time I’ve had to think about my hobbies realistically, and not just for enjoyment. At the same time, I feel like my life is almost as steady as it has been in a while. I know who I am, I know who my friends are, I know who I like to spend time with, and what I like to spend my time doing. After nearly four years of high school, I’ve finally figured it out, only to have to pack up and leave.

{some ladies who are making it very hard for me to want to leave home}

Being a teenager, or ‘young adult’ nowadays always entails firsts. This is the age where we’re doing and experiencing things that we never have before. First parties, first jobs, first relationships, the list goes on. The amount of things we, as young humans, are expected to face and figure out how to deal with, is quite ridiculous. I think once in a while we need to be reminded that it’s okay to not know how to deal with things. Everything has a first, and unfortunately, around this point in life, a lot of them just happen to hit you smack in the face, all at once. But, I mean, think about it. If you waited until you were 65 to experience all of your firsts, you wouldn’t have had a very interesting life up until then. If at 65, you have covered all of your basic firsts, and somehow are finding more (first time sky-diving, first time being shot out of a cannon-ball, etc,) then I commend you. But it’s easier to cover the basics when you’re a teenager, the reason being that you’re not expected to do everything perfectly. Although it may seem like our parents and our schools and our society expect us to accomplish great things at such a young age and somehow never screw up, that’s what being a teenager is for. Use your teenage years while you can, because you can mess up, and you can try things. Not only will your younger years bring you firsts, but also some experiences that are one-timers. Maybe this is your one shot to do something you’ve been imagining. This is a time for firsts, but also a time for lasts. The last time you live with your parents, last time you take a high school class, last time you are still considered a kid.

{mariah filling out college apps at the very last second}

So I know all of this together may seem very overwhelming, and believe me, I am not the ideal role model. There are things I wish I had done, and probably a few I wish I hadn’t done. I look back on some of my firsts and wonder what on earth I was thinking. I know I’ve still got years before I consider my “youth” to be over, but finishing high school this year will definitely mark a change in my life. Hopefully Pulp Mag will become something that I can hold on to while I transition from high school to college. It’ll be neat to have a community here of different people who are open to sharing advice, ideas, and insight that they’ve picked up over the years of being themselves. Everyone’s got something to say, and this is one way people can get their word out. So, thank you, and welcome, to what will hopefully become a beautiful project run by some damn beautiful people.

{all of my love}

~~ Carina

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April 9, 2013

Comments

Oh my god this was wonderful!! You have really captured how I´ve been feeling for the last year or so, constantly stressed because of school and upcoming young adult responsibilities, and sad over the bad parts of teenagehood.
Now I feel like doing something for the first time!

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