Being a tween wasn’t as easy as people made it seem. I had no idea what made me happy, what I wanted to be when I got older, and what made others happy. Basically, I had no idea who I was as a person. It made me so miserable that I hated myself and everyone around me. One day I realized I didn’t want this negativity in my life anymore, and I started to open my mind by discovering new things. I was 12, when I discovered rock ‘n’ roll music. The religious experience made me feel infinite, and I never wanted it to stop.
My first love was Queen, and it all started with the movie: Wayne’s World. One of my close friends and I saw it on television and as lame anime/Green Day/anarchy-loving obsessed tweens we ignorantly turned it on. And then the Bohemian Rhapsody scene happened. We were so moved by this song, we didn’t know what to do with ourselves (besides you know: buy all their albums, concert dvds, and other band merch). We soon knew everything and anything about the band and my favorite member was the drummer, Roger Taylor. I had always been fascinated by the drums, and because of him I began playing. Queen’s music had changed my life for the better.
Soon after, I discovered my interests growing, and I was truly happy with myself. I read somewhere that the members in Queen were influenced by The Beatles and The Who. Almost immediately after I made this discovery, I went out to buy some of their CDs. One by one I fell in love with each band as I did when I first discovered Queen.
First was The Beatles. I can’t remember how it happened, but I remember feeling this huge wave of nostalgia from their music. When I was really little my mom always sang to me, “I love you, yeah, yeah, yeah,” and it was that moment when I realized she had just tweaked the lyrics from She Loves You. It’s almost like it was written by the rock gods that I was destined to discover rock ‘n’ roll.
After I got over my Beatles phase (I mean obsession, but hey, same thing, right?), I moved on to The Who. Not only was their music extremely relatable, but they had the coolest fashion I had ever seen. My Generation, I’m One, and many other of their songs got me through middle school, and their mod style pushed me to stumble upon the fashion world. After that I wouldn’t be seen without a mod target or white boots on my body.
According to Dictionary.com a religious experience is when “the sense of awe and mystery in the presence of the holy, feelings of dependence on a divine power or an unseen order, the sense of guilt and anxiety accompanying belief in a divine judgment.” For the longest time I never knew what an experience like this felt like, but the moment I heard Bohemian Rhapsody, I felt enlightened. Rock ‘n’ roll knocked on my door, and has lived with me ever since.